OCTOBER-HOPES AND DREAM

Assalammualaikum.

Baru bangun. 9Am? Oh 1^st oct dah rupanya.

October , somehow I don’t like this month. Bring back my old happy hurtful memories. *sigh *chest tight

Please be kind to me October . I don’t want to remember those memories. Help me to forget it.

What did really happen on October?

Well, this happen on October 2009 ( wow it’s been 3years already) I still remember it clearly. *sigh

The day he left me for nothing. He just left me like that. Without saying a word. That what hurt the most. When I think of it. Rasa macam nak gila tau. Dia? Maybe the only person I ever  really love. Even now it’s pass 3years I still can’t  forget him. Sometimes tears just came down when I miss him. Then after he left me, my friend suggest me to find someone. I TRIED, and FAILED. I can’t love anybody the way I love him.

Oh please October. I said BE KIND to me. But just now you hurt me.

October : how did I hurt you?

I’m looking all the picture  in my blog. And I saw the picture of him. And us together. Ingatkan bila saya delete pasal entry tentang dia, gambar dalam entry tuh pun akan hilang. Tapi tidak. *hurt again

Me? HOPING THAT I WILL FORGET YOU COMPLETELY . I WILL MOVE ON FROM NOW. AND WILL OPEN MY HEART TO PEOPLE THAT DESERVE TO ENTER MY HEART.

Can I throw you away from my life?

I promise I will work hard on that.

gambar ini tak patut ada !!

assalammualaikum..

masa tengah bosan. i jalan-jalan dekat tumblr. tiba-tiba jumpa gambar neh. 
ngeri dok? aduhai.. ngilu rasa bila nampak gambar ni.


lain kali jangan letek gambar macam neh dekat tumblr. lepas tuh tag "funny".


aduhai..

benda asing suka tumbuh dekat badan saya?

image- derma encik.Google

Okay! Can I tell about my kisah SEDIH? Bukannya sedih sangat. Just agak mengerikan.

“KENAPA BENDA ASING SUKA TUMBUH DEKAT BADAN SAYA”

satu hari yang damai. saya sedang tabah melakukan kerja-kerja hok mulia dekat wad ( masih student nurse) entah bagaiman tiba-tiba tangan ini terseliuh. so , i pergi SOPD untuk berjumpa sang doctor.

Bla.. bla.. bla.. ( menceritakan apa yang terjadi)

bla.. bla.. bla.. ( dia bising-bising)

Lepas tuh dia bagi 3jenis ubat

.( DICLOFENIC SODIUM-tahan sakit, BETAMETHASONE- gatal-gatal, METHYL SiLiCATE-untuk urut-urut.)

Hairan ya? Tangan saya terseliuh dia bagi ubat gatal-gatal. Ish3 encik.doktor. anda sangat lucu. *geleng-geleng kepala.

Then saya complain about something abnormal tumbuh dekat paha saya. Encik.doktor pun cek la...

“oh, saya rasa ini lipoma”

Err. What? Sy tak ingat pun lipoma tuh apa ( sem3 dulu ada belajar^^)

“HAH?! “ buat-buat terkejut. (padahal nak tau lipoma tuh menatang apa)

“lipoma ni fat cell yang abnormal, kalau nak buka kena buat surgery”

Again. “HAH?!” ( betul-betul terkejut)

“Tak boleh buat I&D ( incision anda drainage) jak ka dok?”

“I&D just untuk keluarkan nanah. Kalau lipoma neh kena masuk OT”

( OT=operation theater @ bilik bedah)

“saya boleh refer kamu dengan surgical” sambung c Encik.doktor.

Muka blur “ ala boleh , nanti jak ka dok? Saya takut bah mau masuk OT” terbayang-bayang suasana d OT.

“ala nak takut apa? Setakat dia buat lubang bagi keluar benda tuh. Cuma hantaran la kurang sikit bila dah ada parut” amboi. Sempat melawak lagi beliau ini..

“Hihi. Ala bukan kena tau pun. D paha juga pun^^” diriku menenangkan hati yang gundah,

(perbualan yang lain adalah P&C) hihi

Bla.. bla.. bla.. bla.. ( bincang-bincang dengan c doctor)

“ok take your time. Nanti isnin U datang balik. Sebab isnin klinik Surgical”

“okaylah dok. Thanks kay^^”

Kembali ke wad.

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OMG!! Sangat menakutkan!! Ada benda asing dalam badan saya. Saya akhirnya mengambil keputusan saya buat surgery tuh bulan12 nanti. Time semester break nanti. Aduhai. Xdapat balik kampung la nampaknya ni. Terpaksa berkampung dekat wad ja la ni T.T * SAD amat.

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Ini baru satu kisah sedih.

KISAH YG KEDUA.

Saya ada polyp ( satu lagi jenis ketumbuhan)

So, taknak cerita banyak. Polyp ini lagi menakutkan dari Lipoma. Dan polypdectomy itu SANGAT NGERI sebab saya pernah menyaksikan procedure itu dibuat. Aww terasa sakitnya T.T

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Kesimpulannya.

Saya akan menjalani 2 pembedahan bulan12 ini. T.T

DOAKAN SAYA SELAMAT^^

kisah dongeng saja

gambar sekadar gambar hiasan. xda kaitan dengan entry

KISAH DONGENG- STACY

Ku sedar ku tak seberapa

Jika dibanding mereka

Yang jauh lebih megah dari diri ini

Apa yang mampu ku berhias

Hanyalah hati yang ikhlas

Terpendam simpan untuk dia yang sudi

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa

Dalam waktu sedu

Dalam waktu hiba

Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna

Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya

Kisah dongeng saja

Belum pernah ku merasakan

Dipeluk dalam dakapan

Eratnya melindungi jiwa rapuh ini

Sanubariku memerlukan

Kehadiran seorang teman

Tulus mencurah kasih sepenuh hati

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa

Dalam waktu sedu

Dalam waktu hiba

Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya

Sanggup menerima insan tak sempurna

Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya

Kisah dongeng saja

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WARNING!! Ini entry EMO

Speak about EMO again. E.M.O “emotional memory ofMe”. Baru tadi saya bertekad untuk menjauhkan diri dari dia. Tapi tiba-tiba dia keep me with him. Mean? Dia tiba-tiba rajin call awal pagi dan nonstop texting with me. I cannot resist you laa. Alahai.

Hari ini :

-saya telah makan banyak sebanyak-banyaknya kat pizza. Lepas ni saya start DIET again.

-FYaI( for you all info) – my berat naik 3KG. from 47 to 50. OMG! *TEKANAN melampau-lampau. Baru jak time puasa tuh turun 9kg. T.T

-KBOXing sepuas-puas hati saya. Lepas ni xnak enjoy-enjoy lagi. STUDY MAUT for final.

-Somebody ask for a phone number ( abg pizza) , I gave it. THE WRONG NUMBER. Hahaha! Saya KEJAM!!

- Berjaya menjual HP CSL saya dengan harga RM65. Harga asal RM85.

- My mum tiba-tiba bank in duit. *HAPPY^^

- missing him. *blushing

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Ok la. OUT DULU UNTUK MENUNAIKAN APA-APA KEWAJIBAN @ KEWAJIPAN?

Mana satu ejaaan yg betul ? ( agak NOOB dalam bahasa. In language pun NOOB juga) haha.

Selamat malam? Jam menunjukkan 8.37p.m..

giving up!

assalammualaikum..

warning! ini entry EMO. Macam tajuk entry “GIVING UP” , I am now giving up on you.

Dear, this one for you. Hope you read it.

Dear, saya tau saya bukan siapa-siapa pun dalam hidup kau kan.?

I know that already. Even kau cakap kau sayang saya (dan saya sayang kau juga), but I don’t know why lately, I don’t feel happy when I am with you. Then I realize that YOU NOT THE ONE. Maybe saya agak kejam bila mengatakan ini. Saya sedar saya hanya sayang kau JUST AS A FRIEND. Not more than that. Maybe kau juga keliru tentang sayang kau dengan saya. Sebab kita always together ( in phone) hahaha..

Dan ketika saya menaip entry ini, saya telah kuatkan tekad untuk menjauhkan jarak kita buat sementara waktu. Harap hati saya setabah itu. (kuz saya pandai rindu kau juga kadang-kadang) eh ALWAYS. Hihi. That why I need to do this. I don’t want our relationship be more than a friend. Not yet. Kalau kau sanggup, kau tunggu la 4,5tahun lagi. Apmcm? Sanggup?

Saya sangat melalut.

Dear friend,

Jangan hairan kalau xda text or call from me in a while.

Just so you know, I will really2 miss you.

Now? I miss you too. daisuke aishite.

Alamak! Jam 3.10 pagi. Saya tidur dulu. Selamat malam dunia.^^

the real freaking truth about DiGi

PLEASE READ THIS! IMPORTANT!!

OMG!...

A TRUE STORY -

VERY SHOCKING Very Shocking....... .

This is a real story of a young college girl who passed away last month in Shah Alam. ...

Her name was Priya. She was hit by a truck. She was working in a call center.

She had a boy friend named Shankar. Both of them were true lovers. They always talked on the phone. You would never find her without handphone. In fact she also changed her cell connection from Maxis to Digi , so that both of them can be on the same network, and save on the cost. She used to spend half of the day talking with shankar.

Priya's family knew about their relationship. . Shankar was very close to Priya's family as well. (Just imagine their love)

Before she passed away she always told her friends 'If I pass away please burn me with my handphone' she also said the same thing to her parents.

After her death, people could'nt carry her body, A lot of them tried to do so,but still can't. Everybody had tried to carry the body, the results were the same. Eventually, they called a person known to one of their neighbours, who can speak with the soul of dead person and who was a friend of her father. He took a stick and started speaking to himself slowly..

After a few minutes, he said 'this girl misses something here.'

Then her friends told that person about her intentions to burn her with her phone. He then opened the grave box and place her phone and sim card inside the casket. After that they tried to carry the body. It was then moved easily and they then carried her into the van.

All of us were shocked. Priya's parents did not inform Shankar that Priya had passed away.. After 2 weeks Shankar called Priya's mom..... Shankar :.....

'Aunty, I'm coming home today.. Cook something nice for me. Don't tell Priya that I'm coming home today, I wanna surprise her.'

Her mother replied..... 'You come home first, I wanna tell you something very important.'

After he came, they told him the truth about Priya. Shankar thinks that they were playing a fool.

He was laughing and said 'don't try to fool me - tell Priya to come out, i have a gift for her. Please stop this nonsense'.

Then they show him the original death certificate to him. They gave him proof to make him believe. (Shankar started to sweat) He said...

'Its not true.. We spoke yesterday.. She still calls me. Shankar was shaking.

Suddenly, Shankar's phone rang.. 'see this is from Priya, see this....' he showed the phone to priya's family. all of them told him to answer. he talked using the loudspeaker mode..

All of them heard his conversation. Loud and clear, no cross lines, no humming. It is the actual voice of Priya & there is no way others could use her sim card since it is nailed inside the grave box , They were so shocked and asked for the same person's (who can speak with the soul of dead person) help again. He brought his master to solve this matter. He & his master worked for 5 hours.

Then they discovered one thing which really shocked them....

Digi has the best coverage 'Where ever you go, our network follows!!!'

Don't shout at me . . . hihi. it's just a JOKE..

^^

saya suka MOC( monster of clothing) punya baju

assalammualaikum..

hari ini saya jalan-jalan shopping.

seriously! duit banyak habis hari ini. so, terpaksa berjimat sampai gaji next month T.T

sedihnya kehidupan ni.

wahh.. baju2 from MOC ( monster of clothing) saya sangat suka.! biar murah. tapi saya suka. ahaa

sekian.

saya yang banyak membazir hari ini,

apple bulat

LIRIK LAGU AKU YANG AKAN PERGI-SUPERNOVA

LIRIK LAGU AKU YANG AKAN PERGI-SUPERNOVA

perih hati menjalani
sedih yang tak pernah berhenti
letih terus kau sakiti
perasaan ini kau bodohi

* dimana dirimu yang mencintai
aku sepenuh hati

reff:
aku yang akan pergi
bila kau enggan memilih
cintaku ini bukan seperti
tempat persinggahanmu

letih terus kau sakiti
perasaan ini kau bodohi

repeat *
repeat reff [3x]

okay

tiba-tiba dengar lagu ini dalam phone saya. xperasan pun kewujudan lagu ini. so, 1st time dengar rasa macam suka jak lagu ni. mungkin liriknya mengena dihati kut. atau i'm just being emo? uuu~

me keep thinking~

thinking~

thinking~

emo atau mungkin aku memang harus pergi. bila engkau enggan memilih dan membuat keputusan? You know, waiting sangat menyeksakan.

WARNING!!

LOL this is an emo entry! Kalau jiwa kacau jangan baca! Saja sebagai pengisian dalam belog neh! Hehe sebenarnya bukanlah emo sangat pun. Just suspen2~ hee.. semalam saya terdengar recording satu perbualan antara c A dan c B. suddenly I miss him so damn much. Aduhai. I call him lah sebab tiba-tiba ingat dia kan. I miss dia nyanyikan lagu sebelum saya tidur. So, bila dengar rakaman dia nyanyi, saya agak senang untuk tidur. Well, it’s really bring back memory. Bila saya sangat happy kalau dia call dan tell me dia ada lagu nak bagi saya dengar. Uuu~

Ditambah lagi, dengar lagu yang jadi ringtone kalau dia call. “lagu Sherina munaf-pergi” sebab dia kata dia suka lagu tuh. So, saya letak lah lagu tuh jadi ringtone bila dia call. Aduhai. Kenapa saya neh! Agak emo. I HATE IT WHEN I DELETE A NUMBER FROM MY PHONE BUT I STILL REMEMBER WHAT THE NUMBER IS. Balik-balik saya delete number dia, tapi dah hafal number tuh kan. Bukan susah sangat nak hafal number orang. Adakah ini kelebihan atau kekurangan saya? Balik2 saya cakap xmau kontek dengan dia dah. Tapi susah lah. Mungkin dah jadi habit saya untuk bercakap2 benda kosong dengan dia. Aduhai.

Kalau dia baca ni, saya harap kau tak perasan entry ini untuk ko. Anggap jak kau baca satu entry melalut dari saya. Hee^^ jangan perasaan la kio~ eh! Haha. Ini just kidding2 bah. Bukannya ada maksud apa-apa pun. Hee..

Okay la. Ada orang nak pinjam broadband. Saya takkan online untuk beberapa ketika.

Me?

Currently~

Busy working.

Busy eating.

Busy enjoying every moment of my life.

Busy thinking.

I am very busy woman. Hee

I tell everybody that I am a 25 years old grown up woman. Every year I am 25^^ haha. Actually I am 21 years old single lady(2011).

Just now~

Mengidam tom yam. Dan saya makan tom yam dengan sangat berselera. Nyam2. Wahh rasa macam nak makan lagi. Uuu~ tahan dulu. Diet2. Hee..

Current weight=47. Amazing am i?? sangat! *puji diri sendiri. Okay saya turun 9kg dalam masa 3bulan. Hehe. I love myself. Hihi.. walau kawan2 saya kata, “kurus sangat tak comel la” tapi saya tak kisah punya la. Yang penting happy^^

Eh! Out! Hee.

Wassalam wbt^^

Source: http://liriklaguindonesia.net/s/supernova/supernova-aku-yang-akan-pergi/#ixzz1YURDE9bf

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okok.. assalammualaikum..

siapa mau cabar neh?? sila bermain di speedtest hihi. saya jumpa benda neh dekat belog kawan c IDAH..

pernah main FB "how lucky are you today"? ok nak show off neh. kemarin dapat 100%. padahal just a game. hehe. okay la.

i tried again today. got only 94%. lucky ma juga kan ^^

harap2 exam nanti pun lucky juga walaupun saya agak malas untuk membaca buku-buku-nota-nota dan dota. ehh? opss...

agak kecewa #2

assalammualaikum..

okok ini ialah kesinambungan dari entry agak kecewa #1.

kalau nak diikutkan story nya, this week I attach dekat FMW ( female medical ward). satu petang yang agak suram. tiba2 satu suara yang agak familiar dekat belakang I. bila I toleh. aduhai c dia.

kalau dulu bila I nampak wajah dia,

I akan senyum sampai ke telinga, sekarang I hilang dah senyuman itu.

kalau dulu I boleh gilagila kan dia, sekarang nampak dia agak sakit hati.

ah malas la mau cakap. xda mood. sad neh.. uu~ T.T

tutorial pakai pashmina cara simple #2

assalammualaikum..

okay2! diri ku ada banyak masa free ( padahal next week exam uda)

tadaa.. new pash i beli tadi..

well, ada orang mcadangkan untuk buat vidz tentang tutor pakai pash ni. tapi, i tak rajin pulak nak buat vidz. so, harap2 korang faham la cara2 yg ada dalam pix2 dalam belog i neh yee.. hihi..

okay ini sangat senang!! dalam 5minit boleh siap. haha!!

pakai ini inner neck macam ini.. untuk tutup leher. ahaa..

oh. ni la pash yg baru sy beli. murah2 je.. RM12. ahaa^^

kasi ampai ni pash atas kepala macam ni. haha. aduhai..

lepas tuh, kasi sebelah panjang ni pash. sebelah tuh pendek ( kompem la sebelah panjang sebelah pndek. aduhai bahasa)

kasi gulung2 ini pash macam ni.. tadaaa... jadi uda kan.?

then. yg panjang tuh, kasi pusing p belakang , jadi macam ini. hihihi..

jadi la ia seperti dalam gambar. kalau mau kasi letak bling2 pun boleh juga. bling2 besar2 , bunga2 menawan ( ikut suka hati la)

tadaaa.. simple kan.. 5minit dah siap..anda telah menjadi cantik.. haha!

P/s: kalau xfaham, emm.. maaf la ye^^