Who knew

Who knew

That i would've loved you

Who knew, 

That i would've thinking about you all the time

Who knew, 

I would've need you soo much

I never thought you would meant soo much to me.

I love you

Andai tiada tempat mengadu

Seringkali aku bertanya kenapa harus begini
Penyesalan
Tetapi, jika ini ketentuan Allah, aku terpaksa redha dalam kesakitan
Seringkali aku menangis
Berdoa pada Allah 
Meminta petunjuk Allah
Minta untuk diberikan kesabaran

Aku lemah
Ikutkan perasaan 
Aku tentu lemas dalam lautan air mata.

Wahai tuhan yang maha mendengar
Berikan aku kekuatan
Aminn..

MALAM YANG SUNYI

Memandangkan dah lama tak menaip. So malam ni sayan akan berusaha untuk merepek bersunguh-sungguh. Cuma tak tahu apa yang petut dimerepekkan. Ahaa. Apa kaa. Sot suda. Cuti 2 bulan ni buat otak kurang berfungsi dengan betul. Xda peningkatan diri cuma berat makin meningkat menikut carta lemak secara jayanya. Haha. Kadang saya merasa i should go. But i don’t know where. Dengan malaysia yang huru-hara [-“SYUKURLAH MALAYSIA MASIH AMAN-. Barang makin mahal duit makin kecik. Huu. Nampak barang hati gatal nak beli. Last-last terpaksa lupakan niat. Ngeh. Xpa la. Biar susah sekrang jangan susah nanti. Xda duit sebab memuaskan nafsu shopping. Haha. Kan bagus kalau ada orang yang bijak pandai dan berani menggulingkan kerajaan semasa. Tp pihak lain pn lebih kurang. Bukan pemerintahan telus. Ah malas la cakpa pasal ni. Xpasal-pasal saya pullak gila.. Heheg 

This world is in chaos

War has begun

This world has come to the end.

Are we ready or are we not?

We saw them on news.

Being emo is not helping at all

Updating fb status not making world any better

Saying that you want to fight with them there?

I say ' we are not strong as they are'

Our strength our imaan has big differences just like

Between the sky and the earth

I've been ask my friend

Are you dare

Are you willing to fight a war like that

Some say yes

Some say no

Same say don't know

I would say " i would like to, but am i strong enough"

I only can pray for them,

But if i can go there, i wouldn't hesitate to go

I really want them to feel that we are with them

At least im with them

It is so heartbroken seeing them suffering

Maybe they just suffering physically

Maybe they happy in the inside

Losing friend and family like that

Im not strong enough to face something like that

I just can pray.

a song dedicated to you

Do i have any song? 

If so what song it will be. Haha.

I really love sad love song. Don't know why. But i just do. Im not a good singer. But I think I can sing! Haha. Now I’ve the app called "smule" i always karaoke-ing with smule. Haha nobody know me. Who care if I sound horrible. Ngerr. Hahaha

I sometime write a poem. And i sing my own poem. I don’t now why im getting depressed or cry when sing it. Haha

If I have the talent in music’, im sure there’s a lot song i will write. Huhu. Hurmm Actually the title of this entry is a song dedicated to you.  Ahah I just now listening to the top10 song that will make you cry anda the top 10 breakup song. Haha. And it’s inspired me to write a poem. Huhu. 

I want to sing it. But i just  not a good singer. Hihi

I currently listening to gamma song- hidup segan mati tak mahu. The song tiitle a but harsh. Haha. But this the only song crossed my mid. K bai. Its already late.

Sorry

Im sorry.

For what?

For loving you too much

For missing you

Im sorry for wanting to see you everyday

For always thinking about you before sleep

For feeling upset if i didn't get to seee you

For wanting be by your side

For wanting you to be happy

For wanting you to be part of my life

For trying to make you smile

Im sorry for bothering you

For dreaming about you everyday

Im sorry for replying back as quickly as possible

Im sorry for being mad, jelaous and sad

Im sorry for thinking that you loved me

For annoying you with my msj and call

Im sorry for caring about you

Im just

Sorry for every single mistake i made

Good bye

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Kbai.

Al-Fatihah

29 march 2015 saya dikejutkan dengan berita pemergian ibu mentua saya. meskipun cuma kenal dalam kurang dari 3 bulan. namun kehilangan tetap dirasai.

saya masih ingat ketika pertama kali saya call mak. berdebar juga hari. tapi tetap saya gagahkan untuk mendail. 

tapi bila dah cakap dengan mak, rasa macam dah lama kenal. arwah mak seorang yang baik dan peramah.  ingat lagi mak ucap terima kasih sebab call dia. 

masa bertunang dulu itulah pertama dan terakhir jumpa mak. hati nak sangat p KL jumpa mak masa dia sakit, tapi apakan daya. keadaan saya masa itu tak mengizinkan. sedih sangat sebab tak sempat nak berbakti, xsempat nak rasa ada dua mak. mak dah pergi dahulu.

semoga roh mak mentua saya ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman. amin insyaAllah.