#doubted

Jika ada sedikit keraguan dalam hidup

Jika harus membuat pilihan

Jika ada perkara yang merubah hidup

Berhentilah sejenak

Fikir

Fikir

Fikir

Recall from the past

Intai masa depan

Mungkinkah ada yang kita terlupa

Mungkinkah ada tersalah tafsir

Mereka bertanya dan terus bertanya

They would never be satisfied

Answer by answer i gave

And now i almost give up

Sometimes their question make me down

Sometimes make me want to surrender

Sometimes make my heart weak

But most of the question make me stronger

That what we called 

Onak dan ranjau kehidupan

Sometimes i think i wanna leave

Sometimes i think i don't mean to be here

And that sometimes very hurt

I wanna leave this world peacefully

I wanna leave this place

I wanna stay where nobody would questioning me

I wanna some peace

Tapi mereka tak faham

Aku sendiri tak faham

What should i do?

What am i thinking?

Where should i go?

To the left? 

Where's nothing right

To the right?

Where's nothing left?

Right or left 

It's all up to me to decide

One wrong decision can make us suffer

Can make one self loses her smile

Can force herself into the deep of sorrow

I am now?

Who am i?

What are the purpose me still living here

Im not saying im not happy

Im not saying im happy

I just dont know what anymore

Then, 

I realized..

This were just a mere test

I've been far away for too long

It's time for me to go back

Kembali ke mana?

Kembali kepada fitrah

Doalah. 

Ya Allah, 

Engkau tak akan memberi ujian selain kemampuan ku

Engkau tak akan mengambil jika tiada pengganti

Engkau yg maha mengetahui

Jika ini yg terbaik untuk aku, org sekelilingku, dan agamaku. 

Aku redha

Jika ini bukan yg terbaik maka jauhkanlah

Aku mohon kepadamu.

Tabahkanlah hati ini. 

Amin ya Rabb alamin.