Dream wedding

Every girl have their own wedding dream

Me too

But seems that dream has faded away

I don't know what i want 

I can't imagine how that wedding would be now

Hmm just because

I don't know

Broken

This should be my happy day

But instead im alone and crying

Im broken into pieces

This heartache almost kill me

Just let the tear heal my heart

December Rain

You keep running from the truth, you know it's true
you think I am crazy for loving you 

I wish you could see the angel I see 
when you stand in front of me

you think I am your best gift of all
but I wish you could understand, without you I stand 10 in. tall

I never believed in the saying "opposites attract"
but the second I met you it became a proven fact

I am cold as ice, while you're hot as fire
as long as I live you're my one and only desire

you're not just my want but also my need
you're like my personal drug, for you I plead

I am the happiest person whenever you're near
but the second you leave I shed a lonely tear

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Ahayy apa la malam ni datang sot. Lama nya tak bising dalam belog neh. Busy layan anime la katakan. Just finished sailormoon. Binggung jap napa dalam anime xda scene sailormoon jadi sailorcosmos. That one scene that i really looking foward. Huhu sad.  Xda pla. But dalam komik ada pla. I read their manga last updated 2010. Urghh. New episodes! I will make sure i will find the latedt update of sailormoon. Meanwhile i will watch chinese drama " condor hero" . haha i really love this drama. Still remember the drama on TV2 @ 7pm. My father will switch off the TV. So sad oo. Because we had to study. T.T. haha paling happy kalau bapa sy p masjid sampai jam9. Boleh tgk drama china tuhh. Eh eh dah lewat. Why am i not sleeping? Sebab nak tunggu c bucuk siap kerja. He must call me! If not saya akan merajuk sampai tua. Huhu. Haha. Ee craving for cake la pulak. Alamak. Macamna la nak kurus kalau kepala asyik fikirkan pasal makanan aja. Hehe. Azam tahun baru. Saya mau kurus dan cantik. Maybe renew azam ja la. Haha. And next year insyaAllah will proceed to the next level of life. Upgrade macam2. Bukan COC ja yg kena upgrade, hidup pun kena upgrade juga tau. Ahah. Oh my. Game COC sy  biar la sampai TH7 dlu. Max lvl semua then sy upgrade p TH8. Erk. Apa yg saya mengarut neh. Okay la. Hihi. Babai blogie. :)

Again.

Again 

I just cannot sleep through my dissapointed of my life

You not being supported when you are in pain

Painful feeling throbbing deep into your chest

Again 

What is the most disappointment you have in your life?

Not having you dream come true 

Or

Achieving one dream to let go yours another?

Again

Or just simply hanging off the phone 

And not being calling back?

Again? 

Maybe you just can't sleep.

First time

3.23 am

I'm still wide awake

Laying down with nothing to do

I watched anime just now

Hey! The next thing i know is i'm crying

Soo touched by that anime

And then,

I remember how i used to feel when i cannot sleep at time like this

I would feel soo lonely

Thinking of you

I recalling those wonderful feeling

Texting you in the middle of the night just to ask " are you okay?"

Never tired of texting good morning, sweet dream

Because i loved you very much

Eh!

Did you know i had a huge crush on you?

It wouldn't called crush if it didn't hurt

I rather being hurt for loving you

I missed we talk about feeling at this late night

I missed all those first time

I missed all of you

I cannot do anything without you here

I always need you by my side

Sometime i just looked at the old picture

Reading some old conversation

I missed that

I feel lonely, even you are now half mine

I am afraid i would feel lonely even after you are mine

I don't want you to forget all those first time feeling

I have a jar full of wishes and paper crumbled

All those first time 

I remember it well

Aren't you?

If i can travel through time 

I would tell you, 

Please don't forget me

You never know how much you meant to me

I was afraid being left alone when you are the only one i can hold on to

I really afraid of losing you

I cannot afford how much pain i have to endure because of losing you

Just, please

Don't let be all by my side, Alone

I need you my dear

I Love you soo much

kerepek #4

Halo this time saya nak merepek paling panjang. Bukan pasal saya bosan atau stress.  Haha bukannya apa Cuma nak elak dari tlampau melayan segala macam anime dan mobie dalam external saya. Huhu. Jadi masa tengah malam neh la bila xdapatbtidur idea untuk masak kerepek sangat mlimpah-ruah. Oh masa ni, saya tengah dalam mppd addick pada gae COC-clash of clan. Haha saja main neh sebeb nak tau kenapa ramai sangat orang main benda ni. Now i know. I'm one of the victim. Addicted to this game. Haha. Now i become anytime anywhere gamers. Haha xjuga la. Bukan saya ni pemain game tegar pun. Kadang2 pandai bosn juga main game. Mesti nak cari game baru. Weehee. Kenapa pagi buta macam ni belum tidur. Ini semua salah saya! Minum white coffee kan. Kaw2 lagi tu. Haha. Malam/pagi buta neh nak merepek pasal apa aa? Hmm * berfikir

*masih berfikir

*aik blm habis fikir lagi.

*pause jap tgk COC. Nt kena kacau base sy. ahaha

Okeh sambung. Haha baru main ba neh. Aduhai macam xbleh berhenti uda main neh. Macamna laini? Haha

Dulu sy xsuka main sebab xtau cara main. Sekali dah tau cara. Ee bangun tgk hp, bangun tgk hp. Hahah. Stop la pasal COC

Saya nak merepek pasal entah. Haha lama kan xaktif membelog.

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' If you need me, but don't want me. I will stay. If you want me but no longer need me, I have to go.

Even it never crossed in my mind to go from you. I just cannot be apart from you. I think it would be real hard if you not being by my side. I cannot imagine my life without you. Huhu. I feel sad when I think about it. Such a heartache to think. I don't wanna think about that. Haha. Ee. What happening to me. Being such a pathetic person when it comes to this matter. Huhu. This relationship i have.. hmmm...

These really have deep meaning for me. Haha LOL eh I'm start being emotional, huhu. Okeh kawal jiwa dulu. Jangan taip macam2. Haha

*hilang idea

*tgk COC jap

Eee bila nak merepek datang perasaan mengantuk. Bukan mengantuk bah yg sebenarnya. Cuma malas mnaip. Aha. Okehlah sambung sikit lagi.

I just hoped you would never forget me even if you're so busy with work. I try to understand and give you some times. Hha. Eh cukup la ni. Apa ka merepek malam2. Dah xdapat tidur. X kena dodoi la. Ee sad *buat muka duck face. Xpa la. Saya dengar lagu dalam sound cloud ja la. Haaha.

Klinik jadi Tempat lepak

 

Yeaha. Seriously kerja jadi jururawat neh bukannya senang. Even kerja dekat klinik neh bukan satu kerja yg mudah. Ramai yg cakap kerja dekat klinik senang. Cuma banyak report ja. Hmm betul juga. Tapi klinik neh banyak sangat skop kerja dia. Memang tak penat macam kerja dekat hospital. Sebab kalau kerja d hospital, memang penat tahap melampau2 dengan oder doktor, melayan karenah pesakit dan relatif dia, dan buat nursing report. 

Tapi kalau d klinik neh, memang orang akan nampak kami cuma attend antenatal ( ibu mengandung), postnatal( lepas mengandung) , kanak-kanak, dan perancang keluarga. Tambah lagi ini klinik pedalaman. Kilinik kesihatan ********. So orang luar anggap klinik kami sangat tenang. Haha aduhai. Rasanya sinilah klinik yg xputus pesakit datang. Sehari lebih 100 pesakit datang ( baru OPD ) campur dengan MCH mungkin dekat 300 pesakit sehari. Doktor cuma ada 5, MA ada 5, nurse memang ramai dalam 40 orang. Ramai kan? Hmm. Tapi doktor neh cover lagi 3 klinik kesihatan daerah yg lain. Jadi kadang2 cuma ada 2 org doktor. MA pun ada yg keluar kursus, attend sana sini. Tinggalah 2,3 orang. Hari ni cuma ada 2 MA. Saya kat kecemasan ni sorang2. Haha. Bukannya susah sangat kerja sini. Tapi melayan karenah pesakit? Hmm. Jangan cakap la tahap sabar ni. Datang sorang ibu sakit kunun. Bila masuk bilik minta periksa, akhirnya semua ahli keluarga (7 orang sakit) . Haha lawak kan. Orang sni memang suka ubat la. Ada yg seminggu 2x datang. Lepas tu dia pulak lagi pandai dari doktor. Haha kawan2 farmasi saya pn dah kenal sangat dengan semua pesakit neh. Apa tak nya, tiap2 minggu datang. Haha kalau ubat kurang kna bagi, dia tau lagi pastu minta macam2. Aduhai. Sabar ja la. 

Lagi best, sini pesakit dia ada pelakon hebat. Haha. Siap nangis2. Aduhai. Pesakit ni okeh sy bagi nama A. C A ni selalu sakit perut. Kalau datang pandai nangis2. Dah kena bagi injection Ranitidine + Hyoscine belum hilang sakit. Lepas tu, dia berlegar2 d kawasan klinik sambil buat muka sakit dan menangis. Satu hari c A datang, sambil mengadu sakit sampai xboleh nak jalan. Haha. Ada la MA kami neh. Dia suh baring. Dia ada "tangan ajaib". Dia cek2 perut c A. Trus suruh bangun. Wahh ajaibnya. C A bangun mcm xda sakit apa2. Hebat2. Hahaa

Paling lawak c A. Bila dah bagi segala injection dia masih sakit. Kalau xkena layan. Dia p baring atas katil sambil meraung2. Apa la kalau dah malas nak layan dia. Inject je la pakai water for injection. Eh hilang sakit dia? Ahhaha. Lawak. Kalau ada doktor lg. Aduhai. Macam dia la yg tanggung semua sakit dalam dunia neh. Alahai. Pesakit ku. Sabar ja la.

Budak2 sekolah suka sangat eskep sekolah then p klnik? Apa yg best sangat kat klnik neh. Banyak nurse atau MA sni hensem/lawa kut. Haha. Malas dah nak cerita panjang lebar. okeh bye.