a song dedicated to you

Do i have any song? 

If so what song it will be. Haha.

I really love sad love song. Don't know why. But i just do. Im not a good singer. But I think I can sing! Haha. Now I’ve the app called "smule" i always karaoke-ing with smule. Haha nobody know me. Who care if I sound horrible. Ngerr. Hahaha

I sometime write a poem. And i sing my own poem. I don’t now why im getting depressed or cry when sing it. Haha

If I have the talent in music’, im sure there’s a lot song i will write. Huhu. Hurmm Actually the title of this entry is a song dedicated to you.  Ahah I just now listening to the top10 song that will make you cry anda the top 10 breakup song. Haha. And it’s inspired me to write a poem. Huhu. 

I want to sing it. But i just  not a good singer. Hihi

I currently listening to gamma song- hidup segan mati tak mahu. The song tiitle a but harsh. Haha. But this the only song crossed my mid. K bai. Its already late.

Sorry

Im sorry.

For what?

For loving you too much

For missing you

Im sorry for wanting to see you everyday

For always thinking about you before sleep

For feeling upset if i didn't get to seee you

For wanting be by your side

For wanting you to be happy

For wanting you to be part of my life

For trying to make you smile

Im sorry for bothering you

For dreaming about you everyday

Im sorry for replying back as quickly as possible

Im sorry for being mad, jelaous and sad

Im sorry for thinking that you loved me

For annoying you with my msj and call

Im sorry for caring about you

Im just

Sorry for every single mistake i made

Good bye

-copy paste fb- 

Kbai.

Al-Fatihah

29 march 2015 saya dikejutkan dengan berita pemergian ibu mentua saya. meskipun cuma kenal dalam kurang dari 3 bulan. namun kehilangan tetap dirasai.

saya masih ingat ketika pertama kali saya call mak. berdebar juga hari. tapi tetap saya gagahkan untuk mendail. 

tapi bila dah cakap dengan mak, rasa macam dah lama kenal. arwah mak seorang yang baik dan peramah.  ingat lagi mak ucap terima kasih sebab call dia. 

masa bertunang dulu itulah pertama dan terakhir jumpa mak. hati nak sangat p KL jumpa mak masa dia sakit, tapi apakan daya. keadaan saya masa itu tak mengizinkan. sedih sangat sebab tak sempat nak berbakti, xsempat nak rasa ada dua mak. mak dah pergi dahulu.

semoga roh mak mentua saya ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman. amin insyaAllah.

Dream wedding

Every girl have their own wedding dream

Me too

But seems that dream has faded away

I don't know what i want 

I can't imagine how that wedding would be now

Hmm just because

I don't know

Broken

This should be my happy day

But instead im alone and crying

Im broken into pieces

This heartache almost kill me

Just let the tear heal my heart

December Rain

You keep running from the truth, you know it's true
you think I am crazy for loving you 

I wish you could see the angel I see 
when you stand in front of me

you think I am your best gift of all
but I wish you could understand, without you I stand 10 in. tall

I never believed in the saying "opposites attract"
but the second I met you it became a proven fact

I am cold as ice, while you're hot as fire
as long as I live you're my one and only desire

you're not just my want but also my need
you're like my personal drug, for you I plead

I am the happiest person whenever you're near
but the second you leave I shed a lonely tear

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Ahayy apa la malam ni datang sot. Lama nya tak bising dalam belog neh. Busy layan anime la katakan. Just finished sailormoon. Binggung jap napa dalam anime xda scene sailormoon jadi sailorcosmos. That one scene that i really looking foward. Huhu sad.  Xda pla. But dalam komik ada pla. I read their manga last updated 2010. Urghh. New episodes! I will make sure i will find the latedt update of sailormoon. Meanwhile i will watch chinese drama " condor hero" . haha i really love this drama. Still remember the drama on TV2 @ 7pm. My father will switch off the TV. So sad oo. Because we had to study. T.T. haha paling happy kalau bapa sy p masjid sampai jam9. Boleh tgk drama china tuhh. Eh eh dah lewat. Why am i not sleeping? Sebab nak tunggu c bucuk siap kerja. He must call me! If not saya akan merajuk sampai tua. Huhu. Haha. Ee craving for cake la pulak. Alamak. Macamna la nak kurus kalau kepala asyik fikirkan pasal makanan aja. Hehe. Azam tahun baru. Saya mau kurus dan cantik. Maybe renew azam ja la. Haha. And next year insyaAllah will proceed to the next level of life. Upgrade macam2. Bukan COC ja yg kena upgrade, hidup pun kena upgrade juga tau. Ahah. Oh my. Game COC sy  biar la sampai TH7 dlu. Max lvl semua then sy upgrade p TH8. Erk. Apa yg saya mengarut neh. Okay la. Hihi. Babai blogie. :)

Again.

Again 

I just cannot sleep through my dissapointed of my life

You not being supported when you are in pain

Painful feeling throbbing deep into your chest

Again 

What is the most disappointment you have in your life?

Not having you dream come true 

Or

Achieving one dream to let go yours another?

Again

Or just simply hanging off the phone 

And not being calling back?

Again? 

Maybe you just can't sleep.